It’s 11 pm and I can’t sleep. I’m going back to work full-time tomorrow and I’m so bummed out. This has been the best 4.5 months of my life. It has been awesome starting from the month that I had off waiting for Kumquat’s arrival, to giving birth to my baby girl, to the last 15 weeks of being home with Kumquat and watching her grow and change before my eyes. Now it’s time to hand her over to Jes who will be off for the month of August. In fact, as I’m writing this, he’s giving her the 11:00 pm bottle and putting her back to bed. I know he’ll be great and I know she will be happy but it’s heartbreaking to let go. I’m gonna be a hot mess tomorrow morning when it’s time to say goodbye. Wish me luck.